Though it’s not singing, it’s still music. I found this little guitar a while back in a box at my churches big yard sale. It caught my eye. I almost took it home with me but due to its 2 and a half strings and my innate ability to fail at playing the guitar, it would be quite useless to bring it home. So I ended up just taking a picture of it. I’ve always loved this picture and I’m glad I got to use it to show my inspiration of music in a picture.
You know.. I’ve been thinking a lot about singing today. I watch shows like American Idol and The Voice and hear the most amazing singers get passed up. Well, maybe they aren’t the most amazing, but they sure are good enough to be famous. Then when I think of myself, I know what I hear in my head, and I know what my family tells me, but I think. Am a good enough for something like that? I mean. I’m no Carrie Underwood or Lady Gaga. In fact, if I were to become famous, I’m not even sure what I would sing. It really made me think of when I was in school. I always wanted to be the girl that kept to herself and always was a goody goody with maybe one or two friends that attended the chess club (or the anime club in my case) and then toward the end of my 4 years of high school, I show my graduating year who I really am. A confidant, beautiful, smart girl that can sing! And I would do that by getting all dolled up for the talent show and I would take the prize!! Heh… I love my imagination… Thing is, that never happened. And I’m not sure if it ever would have.
Y’know. Makes me remember a time back when I was in 9th grade. I never wore pants (ok, its not as bad as it sounds! I wear skirts and dresses..perverts..) and I always just threw my hair back into a pony tail as I hid my body beneath my paint covered black jacket and my Naruto headbands (yes, I was a nerd) with some sort of ill fitting, stained and ripped skirt that most of the time, went to my knees with an A-line shape. (very unflattering..) /moving on…. One day, I came into my Algebra class and the assigned seat I had with these three girls. Popular. Attractive. Besties~ . . . if you knew me then, this was FAR too awkward. As I took a seat, they looked at me and said. “Kiki!” yes, that’s what I used to call myself.. *facepalm* such. a. nerd.. anyways.. “Kiki! Why don’t you ever wear pants!? You should come into school tomorrow with pants on and scrunch your hair!” with an array of ‘yeah’s from the other girls, they continued on to say, “If you do that, we can totally make you over for prom. Like, it would be awesome!!” . . .
as I went home, I pulled out and dusted off the only pair of pants that I owned and decided not to wear them. I don’t know what possessed me to not do what they requested but I went to school the next day with scrunched hair and a skirt.
they were actually disappointed in me. I always think back to that day and say.. what if..? sometimes i wish i would have done what they asked. But im ok with how I turned out 6 years later. I know I’m beautiful (even though I wish I could lose some weight), and I’m ok with not being popular or famous when it comes to singing or anything else.
So that’s why today, I decided that I’m going to do some covers. Even if no one watches or enjoys them, I will do them for myself. I’m inspired by music and I love to listen to it and have it seem like it’s like the backtrack of my life. That’s all I need when it comes down to it.
The only thing is.. is instead of doing some covers, I ended up playing my Harvest Moon game (in which I am addicted) and got pretty mad at it, actually! Y’see, you can go into caves and search for rare stones that you can sell for lots and lots of money. So I went there and decided to spelunk~ When in the cave, there are “X”s on the ground where if you step on them, it makes you fall down a few floors, or go up due to a spring rushing out. I was scaling up the inside of a mountain and stood on one of the “X”s on the ground, up came a spring and I was happy (I had hit a few pit falls before that) but now, when I got to the new level, I was stuck in between two unbreakable rocks. The only way out was by restarting the game or making myself lose stamina (if you don’t understand that, there is a stamina bar that goes down slowly as you do things that take up energy and once it’s all gone, you pass out) but you see, the only thing is, I haven’t saved my game in probably three or four days and if you pass out, it makes you go to the next morning and you are exhausted all the next day.
So as I stood in my dilemma, all I could say was…..”I guess I’ll just have to poison myself” almost like some sort of evil genius or something. Luckily I just hit a floor and foraged a bunch of truffles.. So that was kinda annoying.
More on the subject of singing, I played some Rockband, which was fun. I haven’t played in a while. The thing is, I wasn’t the singer, which I usually am. I decided to make my carpal tunnel worse by playing bass. I was online playing with some guy that decided to be the singer. Meh. He was ok, I guess. But here comes that thought in my head of “who am I to judge?” Once again, I have to tell myself that it’s something I enjoy and I shouldn’t let anything take that away.
Man.. I should have worked on those covers.. maybe tomorrow?
What is something you are passionate about?